god’s dreamhouse floor

s m van de kamp

god’s dreamhouse floor

must be littered 

with a lot of light, a lot of

expensive skincare products

and $500 earrings

strewn with uber black drivers 

in nervous performance

with a germaphobe 

here on earth i’m so tired 

i can’t work 

instead i deepclean the bathroom 

in penance or purgatory 

scrub away piss and 

little black hairs from the toilet

only to puke in it the next day

too many tequila shots

is the morning after ever holy?

at least the bowl was clean

sit on my face fuck me

wait what happened 

last night? 

what is on the floor?

on splintered wood sits

the headless pigeon 

i put on the curb last week

a small scratch from a cat, 

that murderess, and my tight voice

i’m dead for the day but tomorrow 

i’ll be alive

 
 

s m van de kamp is a writer of poetry, creative-non-fiction, and experimental formats like a 1000 line choose your own adventure poem. they are the host of SALON, a monthly irl literary salon located in east LA, founder and editor of Dear Blank Zine, and the creator of the @wait.thisispoetry project, focused on finding the poetic in the unexpected. their work has previously been published in women cave journal, booooooom magazine, beacon quarterly, trust and travel’s journal, and more.

@sarahmarievandekamp